It’s been about 4 weeks (according to various syllabi) since school has started, and I am slowly figuring out my schedule. Unfortunately, this constant overlap and overflow of work into school and vice versa has caused me to constantly thinking about my research topic or research interests and how it aligns with different classes.
I have always been able to successfully compartmentalize my life, maintaining enough balance to keep my sanity. It’s been rough the last few weeks, but I think I hit my stride. I still feel like I have to get over my own issues with not producing as much or as quickly as I once did. I think coming to terms with my limits as a person has been difficult. Last week, I felt like I was shirking my responsibilities and still not having enough time to stay caught up.
One thing this degree is teaching me is constant introspection AND self-reflection. I’m constantly forced to think about how my world view influences how I approach research topics. My qualitative research methods class is the antithesis of my last degree. So, it’s been challenging. Thinking about research methodology in a different light is hard. Not to bore you with the details, but having to think of validity, reliability, and bias in the context of qualitative research is so counterintuitive. It’s good though. It’s broadening and stretching my understanding and view of so many things.
I still have a difficult time being in the role that I am in. It’s almost like dual identities. On the one hand, I have to be super academic and use words like epistemology and ontology. And on the other hand, I have to be relatable and understandable to community members. I guess this is where it helps to be a social chameleon.
One of the best pieces of advice I received from my coworker and fellow DrPH-er is that I have to redefine who DrPH Jermy is. She is definitely different than work Jermy, MPH Jermy, and KPHC Jermy (lots of acronyms!). I think I have to find my voice and identity in this new role and chapter in my drama.
Anyway, hope all is well, Katie (and anyone else who may be reading)! Thanks for reading! :)
In other life news, last Friday marked 17 years of relationship-hood with Adam. Our relationship is a senior in high school. Crazy, right?!
And, I think I may suspend my #6weekexperiments indefinitely. Starting school is a #3yearexperiment that should be afforded as many crazy fun outlets as humanly possible. It’s really for my sanity’s sake.